Hey Beauties and Beasts, hope you are all happy and healthy.
I know I’ve started previous posts with I don’t know where to start but with this one I actually don’t because this day was possibly the scariest day of my life. I don’t even know how many times I’ve joked with my parents about being pregnant and it’s funny because I can actually saying JOKEEEE after cos I am actually joking lol but never did I imagine how scary it would really be when telling them I’m pregnant for real haha!!
Hey Beauties and Beasts. Where do I start with these crazy A & E visits, well they definitely were not expected so soon into my pregnancy whatsoever, I legit did not even expect pregnancy to be this hard for me but hey. My first A & E visit was literally a day after I actually found out I was pregnant, mad!
I had gone to the GP as soon as I found out I was knocked up lol to let them know I guess and start the process, I didn’t really know what to expect as this is my first pregnancy. The lady asked loads of questions as they do, she even tried to convince me to come back in two weeks after I’ve made a decision of whether I was going to keep the baby or not, I had to just laugh and just tell her I’m keeping the baby and my decision is not moving left or right and smile because she was really persistent and starting to annoy me! Anyway, she went on to remind me that I’m at a high risk of experiencing a complicated pregnancy due to my condition, explaining that I should look out for particular symptoms and if I start to experience them then I need to go straight to the hospital. As you can imagine I left the GP on panic mode like proper watching out for the symptoms for the rest of the day.
Hey Beauties and beasts, I don’t really know where to start with this one to be honest, I felt all emotions yet none at the same time when I saw the test said yes. I felt a kind of numbness all over my body, I laughed and cried at the same time, I stared at my wall with no expression on my face for a bit while a thousand thoughts crossed my mind, I was lost for words because at this point it still didn’t even seem real. For the next couple of weeks, I honestly felt like I was in a dream, it just really wasn’t sinking in. In that week I took so many tests just to make sure I was actually pregnant because part of me was thinking I can’t be, there’s no way!
Hey beauties and beasts, hope you’re all well and happy. I still can’t even believe that I’m actually going to be writing about being a conscious mum because being a mum was not on the cards for at least another 10 years, ok maybe not ten years but you know what I mean. My plan was to travel this year to Australia for a year and write about my personal conscious journey as an individual and focus on the work I do as a trainer with young people. However, from very young, my plans never actually go according to plan, there always has to be some sort of twist or turn in the works. This time the unexpected twist is that I’m having a baby, not exactly something I can undo or go into Topshop and ask for a refund because the item wasn’t what I expected haha. One thing I’ve always had clear though, is that if this situation ever did happen, without thinking twice, I would do my best to be the best mum I can be. As well as continuing my journey of my personal development and consciousness, I have been blessed with a new perspective, as a mum.