You don’t get a manual when your baby is born, however you’ll still get told all the do’s and don’ts of motherhood. Once Myla was born, without delay, family, friends, midwifes, fellow mothers insisted I breastfed her, “formula doesn’t have the nutrients and healthy stuff that your breastmilk has so you can’t take that away from her”. I tried, i really did. Truth is recovering from a C-section and learning how to breastfeed became way too challenging. So I stopped. I knew I would be judged, I knew of others who were able to breastfeed for a lot longer than I did and I knew breastmilk was the best for my baby. So inevitably guilt grew within me and it was merely unbearable.
As a mum when unable Continue reading “C O M P A R I S O N I S T H E T H I E F O F J O Y”
Myla Rosanna Saunders, the name we fell in love with instantaneously. Early on in my pregnancy, Scott and I agreed this would be her name if it was a girl and to our incredible surprise, baby girl it was.
8 pounds, 9 ounces she weighed when she was born and a tiny segment of my body felt a brief sense of relief that I didn’t have her ‘naturally’. She would of annihilated me. As big as she was for a baby, in our eyes, she was teeny. Myla, an extension of us each, who stole our hearts forever, also resembled a Continue reading “M Y L A R O S A N N A S A U N D E R S”
Whilst we were signing the caesarean form, midwifes gathering what they needed and Scott changing into the clothes they gave him, the energy in the room shifted. The atmosphere became less serene and more edgy as we waited for the doctors to prepare the operating theatre room.
My epidural started to fade and I could feel those stabbing pains starting to creep up again but the midwifes couldn’t Continue reading “C A E S A R E A N B A B Y”
Hey Dolls, forgive me for ending on yet another cliff hanger, believe me I tried!
Back to what I was saying about the pain reaching its ultimate peak! I begged and pleaded for the epidural, I kept screaming “EPIDURALLL NOWWW”! Looking back I get so emotional because it was so overwhelming to endure so much pain yet feel so much love because I was going to meet my baby for the first time.
It felt like an eternity waiting for the Continue reading “B I R T H S T O R Y P A R T 5”
Hey Guys, lets see if I can end the cliff hangers and finish what felt like a never ending birth story in this part. Thank you for reading my birth stories and any other posts, I write them hoping Myla will get to read them one day and knowing people enjoy them is a bonus, so thank you.
Anyway, back to this midwife who said she’s going to break my waters for me. A lot of people with children advised me about not letting that happen and to always ask ‘why’. In the moment though, I was so desperate to get labour going because Continue reading “B I R T H S T O R Y P A R T 4”
Hey lovelies, hope you’re all doing well. I was hoping to write part 3 a lot sooner but mum life has been a bit hectic lately, I wasn’t even expecting to have a third part but my labour was so long, it’s a lengthy story to tell.
As you all know, the midwife attempted to send us home again, yea that’s right, attempted being the keyword because I wasn’t going anywhere. For the amount of pain I was in, I was not about to go home where I have no epidural for when it was needed, chu crazy! Continue reading “B I R T H S T O R Y P A R T 3”
Hey Beauties and Beasts, how was birth story part 1? I’m hoping you were all left wanting to read more because it’s far from the end.
As some of you will know, being 1cm dilated in labour is nothing, your not even half way to getting the baby out. The midwife knew the baby wasn’t coming anytime soon so didn’t stall in sending us home, she told us to keep doing things to relax like watch a film or take a nap. I didn’t say anything but I was thinking she has done lost her mind, Continue reading “B I R T H S T O R Y P A R T 2”